things are much better today -- D was actually home after work so I took a little "mommy time" and ate dinner in bed (away from kids) and then played solitaire and read Shannon Hale. D took care of dishes and playing with the kids. I helped get Ellie down although he pretty much did all of the bedtimes. Then he took over this morning and I got to SLEEP IN! I am still a bit sleepy but things are on the up and up - and I can face the day!